After Setting Up, Last Day


After Setting Up, Last Day

It’s hard to describe how I felt on this last day, calm and relived I think. I double checked my CD player which was a good thing as I think I tripped out the extension lead as it would not come on until i only used one extension lead and not several.

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Me in my space, I noticed a few of my classmates were eager to interact with my work. I came back from helping someone and saw a person standing there transfixed at my spider video. I am looking forward to see how people react to it.

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Ruth

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It was amazing watching people interact with my work. The rat eating popcorn made a great impact on people and it was interesting to see their reactions. Holly above looks so content watching my films and it was intriguing to see Ruth pulling faces and commenting a loud. The glasses part on the side blocks out some of the view which I wanted as people are still aware where they are. But they forget people can see them and watch their expressions which is the work also in itself.

I’m very happy with my work and I would not change one aspect of it, it fits perfectly into my practice and I think I finally found a way how to present it.


Summative Contextualization (74)


Here are the five key points, artists and individuals who have inspired me and helped me progress my work.

1.Simon Fenoulhet-https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2014/12/12/phone-conversation-with-simon-fenoulhet-25th-nov/

I accidentally came across Simon online and I was fascinated by his work of light and dark. I read about him discovering this tunnel outside the Park Plaza hotel and I wanted to investigate it. He was very helpful with my project and inspirational and this was the turning point in helping me take my project forward into the phobia aspect of it.

2.Martin Creed-https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/03/06/martin-creed-balloon-art-march-4th/

Martin Creed and his balloon art was very inspirational, my housemate is petrified of the noise of a balloon popping. Not only is it’s a more fun activity but its a interactive piece. I think this made me question why I thought it was important to make sure people can interact with my work, such as the visual glasses as it was almost like they were there experiencing it up close and personal.

3.Marina Abramovich https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/02/25/artist-research-13-feb-abramovich-and-export/

Marina Abramovich really helped me consider the mental and physical limits I would have to endure and push myself to overcome and experience. In her work she suffers at great cost for her art, she was physically hurt in many ways to the point of exhaustion, to even fainting in a ring of fire as she ran out of oxygen. She was hurt by her audience and was mentally prepared to die for it.

Some of the tasks I had to do were either very frightening or much like her they were very dangerous such as the tunnel.

4.Sigmund Freud-https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/05/14/sigmund-freud-59/

My project looks into the depth of the mind. Its about helping people overcome and understand the element of their own phobias and fears.

Freud helped us understand many things such as the study of dreams regarding the unconscious, alongside fear with symptoms of anxiety caused by fears and phobias and tried to help us overcome them.

His quote, “Dread” requires a specific object of which we are afraid. ‘Fright,’ however, emphasizes the element of surprise; it describes the state that possesses us when we find ourselves plunged into danger without being prepared for it.’

This made me really question myself and why I wanted to investigate and continue down the route of phobias. I think I wanted to examine and push my limits mentally and physically. He was rather inspirational and helped me understand why I was fascinated with peoples phobias.

5.Kutlug Ataman- https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/05/14/installation-video-art-65/

I think Ataman helped me question how I wanted to present my work. Looking back at my assessment I think I struggled greatly with the presentation of my body of work and how I would display it.

In his work he focuses on how to connect and engage with his audience. I think I accomplished this with the visual glasses as it shuts them off from their surroundings, but it helps them engage and view the film on a more intimate level. The same with the headphones as it takes away the sense of sound in their surroundings.


Summative post- Documentation (73)


Here are the 5 key points in my project that have helped me progress and push my practice forward.

Artist Statement,

Hysteria

Dread” requires a specific object of which we are afraid. ‘Fright,’ however, emphasizes the element of surprise; it describes the state that possesses us when we find ourselves plunged into danger without being prepared for it. Sigmund Freud

My work explores themes regarding peoples phobias. My goal is not necessarily to frighten people, it’s about facing that fear and encouraging others to overcome it. I recreated several phobias from data I collected from people and placed myself in specific situations in order to experience that individuals fear.

This was mentally and physically challenging as I experienced Claustrophobia in an abandoned, collapsed tunnel in Cardiff. I also donated blood, alongside interacting and handling animals such as rats, snakes and a tarantula, but also facing my own fear of Vertigo by climbing a ladder.

For me that was mentally challenging as it surfaced traumatic memories and experiences as a child. But I felt it was a achievement as I felt liberated to try and overcome my own phobia.

I found the tunnel to be physically challenging to explore and experience. It was very dangerous and extremely narrow. There was also severe risk of it collapsing a second time as it was very unstable. I had to crawl on my stomach to enter the tunnel and then again, where it previously collapsed.

Not only have I personally experienced these phobias but the viewer can also experience my struggle, mentally and physically throughout these ordeals.

1.Tunnel-https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2014/12/14/dec-3rd-tunnel-exploring/

This was the major break through in my work. Coming across this tunnel helped push my work further and question why I was originally interested in the supernatural. It was due to the scar factor and fascination why we feared it so much. I was eager to explore this tunnel, it was a major achievement and it made me question why was I so fascinated by it.

I think it was to overcome this fear of being trapped as I put myself in danger. But  I found it liberating in a way after I successfully completed it made me question the possibility of re creating peoples phobias.

2.Donating Blood – https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/03/01/donating-blood-19th-feb/

I have always wanted to donate blood and speaking to Wen in my class about her project of blood transfusions she suggested Welsh Blood may be interested in my project, I contacted them to see if I could film or maybe take images for my project.

It was a great achievement for me as I was terrified and even Wen came with me, which helped her project as she manged to take images for her own project as well as my own.

I overcame this fear and I would happily donate blood again as it could have saved someone else life.

It was a shame I could not film it as I that would have been very effective in my video of watching a needle, sadly I could not use it in my degree show but it was a major breakthrough.

3.Animal Phobias-https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/03/01/animal-phobia-22nd-feb/

I had to mentally prepare myself to interact with these animals I dislike them but I would not say I had a phobia of them. I think these are the phobias most likely to make impact on people. The rat I think is the most effective as I imitated the sound of the popcorn of it eating as this was the only thing I could hear as I could not see it.

4.Visual Glasses –https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/03/19/march-16th-visual-goggles/

This was the major break through in my project when I went to Neil’s projector workshop. I could not decide if I wanted to use a projector or possibly design something like ipads to look in. Even though I couldnot  buy my own for numerous reasons, his one pair were quite successful in how I wanted to present my work.

5.Attempting To Overcome My Own Fear- https://impressionistlover.wordpress.com/2015/05/13/editing-films-april-5th-64/

I found out of all the tasks I endured the most terrifying for me was climbing a ladder. I suffer with Vertigo and it was mentally challenging, as when I began to climb the ladder I instantly thought of the source of my phobia in my childhood. One being stuck in my attic, the second on top of a escalator and a kind gentleman helped me down and lastly I was frozen petrified at the edge of a swimming pool diving board unable to move.

Every time I watch this part of the film it makes me feel uncomfortable and I experience the same scare element I did whilst doing it. I cant say I am any nearer in conquering and overcoming that phobia, but I am happy I managed to do something to relate to my own personal fear.


My Artist statement (72)


Hysteria

Dread” requires a specific object of which we are afraid. ‘Fright,’ however, emphasizes the element of surprise; it describes the state that possesses us when we find ourselves plunged into danger without being prepared for it. Sigmund Freud

My work explores themes regarding peoples phobias. My goal is not necessarily to frighten people, it’s about facing that fear and encouraging others to overcome it. I recreated several phobias from data I collected from people and placed myself in specific situations in order to experience that individuals fear.

This was mentally and physically challenging as I experienced Claustrophobia in an abandoned, collapsed tunnel in Cardiff. I also donated blood, alongside interacting and handling animals such as rats, snakes and a tarantula, but also facing my own fear of Vertigo by climbing a ladder.

For me that was mentally challenging as it surfaced traumatic memories and experiences as a child. But I felt it was a achievement as I felt liberated to try and overcome my own phobia.

I found the tunnel to be physically challenging to explore and experience. It was very dangerous and extremely narrow. There was also severe risk of it collapsing a second time as it was very unstable. I had to crawl on my stomach to enter the tunnel and then again, where it previously collapsed.

Not only have I personally experienced these phobias but the viewer can also experience my struggle, mentally and physically throughout these ordeals.


Setting Up My Exhibit Space (71)


Setting Up My Exhibit Space

Setting up my exhibit space was a relief it was good to see how much space I had to play with. There was enough space to walk around to view my tv as well as to listen to the headphones.

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As we can see here I needed a extension lead that came down from the ceiling past the wall and hanging down.

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I also tested out my tv and dvd player, thankfully a classmate did not need her tv anymore for her exhibit space so I took it out to use.

The quality of the screen was quite crisp and the sound was amazing, and being in studio 7 the room is quiet as all the projectors are on the other part of the building.

After I cleaned my space I started to place my chairs and bookshelves in the area.

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I decided instead of standing on the sides here to listen to my balloon piece, the right hand side is louder in the CD itself so I thought it would be wise to sit. Also the tv people can stand and watch it, as I originally planned to allow people to sit and watch but I dont think its needed.

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I decided to buy some books from Blackwell, which were actually really inspiring to read it made me question  theory’s by Freud. The small statue and set up is to encourage and give the impression of a clinical setting installation. Everything is black and white even the frames as its so clean.

I will most likely sweep the floor tomorrow to just give it a once over.

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The chair here is positioned to face the wall to try and not distract the viewer. The glasses are on a small stand to encourage people to wear them. There are also little black fabric like flaps over the sides as I did find it a little distracting when they were worn. They dont fully block it all out, but I think its safer for the viewer this way as they are still aware of their surroundings.

I also bought a brain poster to go onto the wall and it’s beginning to look like surgery.

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I decided I wanted a Freud image, this was printed on canvas paper much like my gorilla print back at the art auction. It looks very realistic like it was painted, if I had more time I may have drawn one, though I think this looks quite effective and almost like a dedication or a doctors office.

There is also a small picture frame describing words relating to the theme of phobia such as anxiety etc.

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The tv location has enough space for people to walk around and interact with the headphones and glasses which I’m much happier about.

Overall I am very pleased with my layout, it’s been a tiring journey and I felt I have done a great achievement, at Christmas time I came to a artists block of how I could take and push my work further. My supernatural project came to a standstill as I was not sure how I could present it, linking that with the the tunnel I came across by Simon Fenoulhet really turned my work around and ideas.

I would not change this any other way and I am very happy with my outcome and how its presented.


Reading my books, Sigmund Freud (70)


Reading my books, Sigmund Freud (70)

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I read this book and I was quite surprised how good it was. It was quotations from his practice regarding all themes that he examined in his career sch as sex, phobias, dreaming etc my favorite one is,

“Dread” requires a specific object of which we are afraid. ‘Fright,’ however, emphasizes the element of surprise; it describes the state that possesses us when we find ourselves plunged into danger without being prepared for it.

To me this links perfectly to my project. My project examined phobias in many ways but its about the experience and not the fear factor element.

I don’t want to purposely create scare factors, it’s about overcoming ones personal fear.

My work covers the element of surprise, the glasses hide the rat eating popcorn so you dont know what to expect. Several people have watched this and either are fascinated and cannot look away or they go into hysterical panic mode and put the glasses down.

It’s interesting to see who can face their fear and be curious to a individual who’s petrified. It works well with the face to face factor as it feels intimate and up close.

What is Hysteria?

‘In psychology, the term hysteria was once used to describe a medical condition thought to affect only women. Symptoms of the illness included partial paralysis, hallucinations and nervousness. The term is thought to originate from ancient Greek physician Hippocrates, who associated these symptoms with the movement of a woman’s uterus throughout different locations in the body.’

http://psychology.about.com/od/hindex/f/hysteria.htm

The term hysteria is from the Greek hystera, which means uterus. In Today world, psychology recognizes two different types of disorders that were historically known as hysteria: dissociative disorders and somatoform disorders. Dissociative disorders are psychological disorders that involve a dissociation or interruption in aspects of consciousness, including identity and memory. This refers to a coping mechanism and defense against severe trauma These types of disorders include dissociative fugue, dissociative identity disorder and dissociative amnesia.

Somatoform is a disorder where patients can suffer with depression and anxiety and can express physical aspects or mimic injury or pain.

I have thought long and hard to call my work Hysteria, it links greatly with psychology as my art studies the mind. You have to mentally challenge yourself and face your fears. I chose the most common as there was a greater chance of people being able to relate to it such as spiders, snakes, rats, heights, blood, claustrophobia etc.


A Change Of Location (69)


A Change Of Location 

I saw David and he asked me how my project was going. I said the space I had was awkward to set my furniture in and it was extremely cramped and would have preferred a corner location. He motioned to follow him and led me to where I was originally been placed. Sadly I was quite stressed being a day before my final hand in and I had to paint parts of the wall and re clean the floor.

I then had to find a technician called Dennis to fit a extension cable from the ceiling into my space and then take out a tv for degree show.

I spent the day thinking how I was going to set up my work as I have two bookshelves, two chairs, a tv monitor and glasses connected to a dvd player.

Thankfully it’s big enough to walk around and watch the tv or for people to sit down to interact with my glasses or headphones.

I’m more happy with this location and it was where I originally wanted to be placed.